Yes, Humans Explore Suffering

Yes, Humans Explore Suffering

On suffering. It’s time to understand that you are exploring suffering as an embodied soul. It’s one of our tasks this lifetime. This rightly implies that you can makes choices relative to the experience of it which includes whether to do so under various circumstances and to what degree.

I know this concept is mind blowing for most humans. In fact, most get downright hostile at the suggestion that suffering and choice have any relationship. Most humans are still heavily invested in exploring victim-hood as a motif for living and this goes hand-in-glove with suffering. You, lovely reader, are not one of those humans. You are or have discovered that sovereignty demands ownership. It has or is occurring to you that an awakened consciousness is a highly self-responsible one.

The human condition, yes, is predicated on a deep dive into intense shadow experiences that include every range of painful occurrences. No one is immune to these. That said, what you do have choice about is your response. Your self-determination in those responses is the center upon which your sovereign living depends.

What is sovereign living? It is your consciously elected way of approaching daily life such that you consistently seek to release self judgement, judging and the judgement of others, you apply liberal doses of self forgiveness and forgiveness of others. In essence, you dedicate you life to self love inclusive of the personal narratives and elected behaviors in your daily lives and emanate that to others.

Does this mean you are without the experience of suffering? Not at all. What it does do, over time and practice is help you gain a psychic centering and level of peace required to stay relatively healthy and well while living a third dimensional soul-embodied life. Will you experience aging and disease that is prevalent on our planet? Yes. Will sovereign living impact that experience? Most definitely.

Those of you who read this blog know or are coming to know that you are a service-to-others soul. As such, your ability to serve depends on your ability to create daily habits that foster sovereign living. You have already well noted the results for our brothers and sisters when sovereign living is not practiced.

It is a seriously mistaken belief that self love and forgiveness are risky, useless or dangerous. In fact, for reasons having to do with quantum mechanics, vibratory resonance and sacred geometric principles, they are the bedrock of soul-embodied living for those of us who manage to hold enormous light on our planet.

I am grateful you are living on planet today and serving alongside me. Namaste.

Always with my love, Amber

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When Consciousness-Centered Responses Fall Flat

When Consciousness-Centered Responses Fall Flat

Earlier today I responded to a colleague’s question on Instagram.  In her post she mentioned she was having head and neck strain. Since she is in a healing arts field, essential oils, my written comment to her suggested that she avoid overworking her masculine energy which creates tons of drive and action in favor of  bringing in more female energy that allows flow  and results to be magnetic. I suggested that she create a balance that incorporates both activity AND trusting the flow of life. This balance will take better care of her human spirit and body.

Later in the day I noticed that she saw my response and asked “how do I do that?”  I answered her there, but this simple exchange prompted me to write this post. I suggested to her that identifying human programs that have us exhausting ourselves in the name of success and productivity is one area to observe. I offered that she could explore what is meant by ‘feminine energy’ and how that works to attract or magnetize the desired outcome.

The fact is while I answered her,  and knowing her as I do, I could sense her reasonable disbelief on some level, that my proposal had any real merit. And she is not alone. I completely understand that addressing questions from a spiritually-centered perspective can come off as lopsided, meaningless and trite.

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In the realm of conscious spiritual awareness, words often fail. As humans we are third dimensionally programmed to discourse within an accepted frequency regime that is disinclined to recognize personal power and choice. It is also not a big fan of balance and wellbeing as a way of living and being. As such, to make responses to “how do I do that?” in a few short consciousness-based sentences mostly falls flat.

In my experience the other person either turns off and tunes out or, worse, gets irritated. I’ve had it all happen. The more reasonable human programmed response, if one is even made (first line of huamn programming is to NOT respond to the stated pain), would be “oh, sorry to hear you are are in pain.”, the next acceptable response would be “you could also take a warm bath or get a massage”. Those both fit with acceptable expectations for human interaction. No one is going to argue with those.

Most humans don’t want to hear what I responded with when asked “how do I do that?”. Why not? Because they don’t yet feel able to do the first steps needed. These first steps to anything energetically, consciously or spiritually related require you to notice something or become aware of something. This requirement is the first warning flag a human needs in order to sense danger that their beliefs are going to be challenged such that they need to run away from the conversation.They are being asked to go within. This inherently suggests that solutions lie within not outside of them. It also implies the long haul, no quick fix. Ugh.

A significant set of others decide to fight back when they hear the kind of response I made. Trust me, after all these years I know when another person feels defensive and would rather get passively huffy or downright negative and mean. Plus, my mad skills of perception (chuckling) can smell a sour note a mile away. There are the lovely but fewer intrepid souls who get curious and ask the next question. “What do you mean by that? Can you describe that?” Sweet relief. These souls are you dear reader. These are the humans who by changing themselves change the planet.

I get asked ‘how-to’ questions and often know I’m being asked to regurgitate a list of some sort, a recipe, for relieving a symptom or two. The plain truth is that conscious living of any kind is not a recipe or list. It’s an internal drive or call that we answer for living in a more sovereign way such that human programs are no longer unconsciously driving thoughts, feelings or actions. It is a cultivated perspective that takes dedication and practice. Lots of practice.

So yes, our kind are going to appear to those who are not ready to explore themselves in this manner to be all ‘love & light’, elusive, exclusive and without merit. I’ve increasingly accepted this to be the case now that I am no longer looking to fit neatly into broadly accepted categories for what ‘good humans’ look and sound like. Or what what helpful humans say when asked “how do I do that?”.

I’m okay with the fact, and this is a long time coming, that my best language and intent to support another soul will fail to be received in the manner it was intended, often and completely. After all each of us is already sovereign. We all heal and evolve ourselves based on the blueprint with which we arrived and with which we teach ourselves to inform and interface. It’s the true divine nature of all existence.

I write this with much love as always, Amber




Practical Energetics: Your Sovereignty

Practical Energetics: Your Sovereignty

Want to know a life altering condition that humans are programmed to avoid? If you decide to take complete responsibility for yourself and begin to live from the awareness that everything occurring in this incarnation was agreed to prior to arrival to earth and you engage this agreement on a daily basis, you will achieve sovereignty.

Freedom comes from taking complete self responsibility at all times. There is complete freedom in knowing that everything existing in your life at this very moment, you manifested for your own soul’s experience. Everything.

Use the phrase ‘self responsibility’ with your average person and be prepared to be looked at with at best a blank stare, or at worse, bitter resentment. If you sit there long enough it’s likely the person will begin to argue why they are NOT responsible for their lives and what has happened to them. They will tell you all about their victimization.


For most humans the mere suggestion of what I have posed here is utterly unacceptable and abhorrent. Much argument ensues around ‘what about abuse?’ or ‘what about earthquakes and people dying?’ and ‘what about the job from which I was laid off?’, etc. From the level of self responsibility to which I refer, yes, all of this is YOU too. All agreed. All. Of. It.

In fact, the most sacred aspect of my human life today is the absolute assuredness that I am responsible for every manifested ounce of my life. This means I have nothing going on in my life that I did not at some point in my soul consciousness agree to experience or explore.

This understanding makes me resilient and hearty accepting every light and dark nuance this third dimensional life expresses. It also calls me to look outside of this dimension in order to make sense of and work with that which we humans are confronted sheerly by living here. It is both horrifying and delightful living as an embodied soul.

When I dip into my sense of sovereignty, which I do daily now, I literally feel weightless and free within this knowledge. Some of you reading this are having all kinds of questions and resistance to my words at this point. I completely understand this. But I will continue. It is my job as a teacher to do so.

This sovereign state makes me free to make changes when and where needed to the degree that I am conscious of what I am creating and choosing. Therefore I am acutely interested in my ability to be conscious of my power and capability to choose. I nurture this interest and have an insatiable drive  as a mystic, student and teacher to seek tools and insights to gain more conscious capability to create and build from within this condition.

I hold this to be True: I am, as you are, an expression of Source, and am the creator of my own life. I am the builder. I am the magician. I am the Divine Self that vibratorily holds all aspects of my nano-atomic blueprint, forgotten or remembered, within my energy body.

To be very clear, I observe you to be a reflective manufacture of my elected magnetic experience too. That old boyfriend who said “Amber, you act like this is your life and we are all just passing through it” was one hundred percent correct. Only he was complaining.

It is not popular in the predominant culture among humans to espouse that I am responsible for every aspect of my lifetime. It’s not accepted programming among humans that I, not someone or something else, holds power over me.

It is unacceptable to most people that I am as free as I know to make myself of false belief systems that limit my self perception, curiosity and imagination. It is not popular precisely because it requires self responsibility. Others do not want to hear this from me because they innately know I am talking about them too.

We agreed to become entrained at birth to be primitively adverse to assuming responsibility for ourselves. We elected to forget our sovereign selves upon which the remaining Cosmos and her Families operate. We were asked to experiment with forgetting this and many other aspects of who we are in favor of limitation, shame and suffering of every nature. Indeed we elected perceived powerlessness. In some ways we began to prefer this condition having become so familiar with it.

Once you lose the programmed belief in victimhood and messianic patriarchal ideas such as waiting to be taken care of or saved by other human or benevolent beings, you begin to face your shadows. And this life is front loaded with shadow in the name of pain and suffering. The shadows are light too but are moving energy at a lower rate than that which we refer to as ‘Light’ and are inherent to the third dimensional life.

There is no way to achieve this sovereign condition of existence without metaphorically coming face to face with many ogres at many gates. Myths are loaded with the ‘ring pass not’ aspects for reclaiming something lost hoping to be found.

Yes indeed, some of these shadowy monsters are real human beings, others are ephemeral results wreaking havoc on you mind, body and soul. Insert the concept for the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ here. For some, dark nights are a lifetime that only death resolves. For others, the achievement of sovereignty provides an imminently livable condition from which life becomes an amazingly strange delight.

There is no way around this heroic journey of self exploration.No drug, no drink, no food (or lack of it) or sexual experience will get you to a sovereign state of being this lifetime. There is no academic or professional achievement nor money or external power structure that can assist you to jump over the abyss of pain and suffering required to achieve the sovereign state while living on earth.

Why have I achieved it? Because I have complete self responsibility for my existence and what I have and continue to  bring into my life. Warts and all. The pain at times has been alternately numbing and excruciating but I know with certainty that agreed to it, created it, built it and at times, destroyed it. I know that in this same manner I invited you, reader.

I am, as you are, exploring and experiencing my life as Source coming to know itself. Am I perfect in sovereignty? Not as long as I am in human form, no. The nature of human living in the third dimensional form precludes perfection.

This means that my mates, my friends, family and professional life are all manufacture of this exploration. In this understanding is my ultimate sense of freedom. Herein too  lies the achievement of peace. It is truly a peace that surpasses human understanding. I now witness my life from a slight distance, one that neither overly joins nor overly disconnects. One that mostly observes and loves while consciously self-correcting  my course from day to day.

Sovereignty is a highly encoded vibratory condition that requires daily service. It is a quantum mathematical condition requiring a narrow focus to which I attend throughout my days. The frequencies for this state are specific just as are any other manifested state of being. As with anything immensely pleasurable I am devoted to this condition and sustain it above all else.

In fact you consciously or unconsciously work equally as hard to sustain the suffering you have in your life today. This is the impersonal nature of Existence. You build it, it will come. You create it, it will exist. You destroy it, it will change its nature in your life.

I hope this post has exposed some new themes to you or taken you a bit further in your own explorations for what it means to become sovereign too. The time is now arriving that earth’s inhabitants gain ground on who they are in the Grand Scheme and how to operate more fully as the powerful souls they truly are by Design.

Sending my love with this writing, Amber


Multidimensional Living: #Me Too

Multidimensional Living: #Me Too

So much revelation is occurring it is hard to keep up. What is occurring in the US right now is an amazing outing of a human planetary condition that was set in motion in linear history so very long ago. In fact, some esoteric narratives (non-linear history) can describe why this is the case and identify its point of origin. Fascinating reading. Up until now sexual predation in every form has been quietly harming, dividing, and draining the populace in such a way as to hinder access for entire generations of humans seeking a thriving and well-lived life on earth.

I bring this subject to your attention as an excellent example of ascension in consciousness unfolding. While many of us in our community tend to make consciousness a highly esoteric endeavor given its florid and other-worldly attributes and experiences, many of us also yearn to SEE, in third dimensional terms, what this rise in awareness and human change looks and feels like.


I’m grateful to have lived long enough to see and hear the mass outcry with regard to sexual predation that is rampant in our collective cultures. Yes, rampant. In the US the secrets started to explode in the last several months when Hollywood figures were called out for their aggressive predatory behaviors. This led to a broader bellow from the American workplace. And then #me too happened. This was a moment I’d been waiting for all of my life: to see something contributing to human suffering ferociously come to light AND be grabbed by the grassroots with unrelenting velocity.

In that #me too moment people from all over the world started to tell their stories. People called out predatory sexual behaviors they’d experienced. The incidences ranged from challenging us to wonder ‘is that predation?’ to ‘wow, that is truly horrifying’. In fact, I shared my own stories with my tennis partner while we worked on our net game and then later with my in-laws on the phone. My in-laws then shared theirs with one another over the Thanksgiving holiday. Revelations indeed. Up to that moment, I’d had NO idea my father-in-law had been pursued by a pedophile when he was a small boy.

For my part, I related that my highly regarded head of department grabbed my breast at a student/faculty party. And I recounted how my major professor at my graduate school counseling program casually mentioned, not once but twice in two different meetings apropos of nothing, how much men liked sex. The first time was when when I met him to interview as an applicant to the program. The second was to discuss my performance results, a couple years later, in order to graduate. In my early clinical career at a crowded hospital meeting, the seating being limited, a long-time physician patted his knee and said, “you can sit right here”. Uggh.

As students of diverse spirituality themes we are long forewarned of sometimes shocking, disruptive, or revelatory experiences to come as humans make this current leap into unity consciousness. I’d say this one is an excellent example. Yes, we’ve had plenty of other opportunity to grab sexual predation as a public topic en masse before only to see it creep back to it’s hidden-in-plain-sight position. In fact, in the US, we elected a president who is on record for referencing his predatory capabilities with glee. But something is different this time, isn’t it? Here is why.

This time a collective of seemingly unrelated human beings from all walks of life took to their social media and said #me too. When this happened, the usual position for this topic in the universe of human suffering had a seismic moment. Collective emotion coalesced into one voice. Not for a political reason but for a human reason. Humans were triggered by the exposed events to allow their wounding to be seen and also witness the wounding of others. The raw power in this moment is still gaining momentum. When human beings begin to see their privately and often shamefully held injuries mirrored back to them, the dis-ease resulting from sustained injuries begins to heal. And this is where the ascension in consciousness takes hold or more accurately, develops a more stabilized harmonic vibratory resonance.

When healing occurs so then does the injured aspect of that individual’s sovereignty that was temporarily offline or disabled. You can easily see how disempowering it is for human sexuality to be used as a ‘power-over-others’ motif. Understand that sexual predation is NOT a sexually expressive action, it is an overpowering action. Human sovereignty is the divine birthright for each soul arriving to earth. Indeed we arrive to the planet a fully sovereign being. It is also the core of a human’s power architecture, blueprint or matrix.

Break into our individual sovereignty codification and the human loses some or all of its bearings (aligned frequency) to participate fully in their own choices making them susceptible to groupthink and other externalized psychological programs.  As the population heals this overarching condition, sovereignty is re-established which reduces individual disempowerment making individuals less susceptible to outward influences relative to how life is self-responsibly lived. THAT changes everything.

Sexual predation is only one subject coming into the awareness of many humans now. We have a number of in kind societal ills, such as hunger and access to clean water and healthcare that are coming up for healing. The fifth dimensional life is one of cooperation, integration, balance and service. It will take time to establish, but first the institutions and programs that have had a chokehold on the sovereignty of the human population will come to light.

I write this with much love and appreciation for you. Amber